the tooth dream complete with Jungian analysis

I bite into a youthful

toothless tomb.

My insides echo

with absence. 

My mouth

rusts into

ahhhhh

slick black gap.

The pearly petals melt

within my wilted gums

like lipstick

into waxy summer puddles.

And the tomato on the linoleum

is wrinkled rotten

and holed with mold.

And the paint is caked in yellow smoke.

The ovaries flee the autumn trees
and the orchid on the mirrored vanity

sheds its electricity.

I am the fly:

a desperate buzz

that licks at the beauty shit--

A tongue to own its onus;

to breathe its impossibility.

I am the conch

shell.

Listen to hear

the ocean of disowned.

the cradle

My eyes collide

into his horrific fish

shirt. The one that swims

with multi-colored

cotton carp and

the earthworm bait

they chase.

I trace a bisque thick stain:

an amber ring around his collar

and wonder

if he wishes for one

to encircle his finger.

I am twenty-one

years his junior;

while I gargled my first

speech,

he was sipping whiskey

with Aqua Netted women.

Our lifelines notched

us against a gummy wooden bar

where we order more

of the red wine and Amstel Light

that let him to kiss me;

a Pall Mall smoky make out

in the buzzing midnight parking lot.

His triangle of pepper

chest hair trembled.

And he loves me.

he slurrs

the words like easy

cheese

and plants his hopes

in my palms.

And this is how we grew.

quickie

come fuck me
and now
he says

and i swoon

i tingle inside
like electric dust

i steal another swig
of tennessee whiskey
rocks
before i drag the alcoholic glass
across the cement
where their kiss ends
with a shatter

i run my thumb across
the snowy glass static
and sift shards to smear
into my soft spots

behind my ears
where i can hear
the sanguine smear
softness wrecked
and collect in burgundy pool
beside my clavicle

and between my fingers
where i used to be ticklish
i smash the glassy ashes
and silently
ask for better grasp

i claw my fingers across
the glassed cement
and hope my prints
slide from my fingers

that the whirling tips
digest themselves
like the iridescent acidic corpse
that feasts upon itself 

little does he know
that im already fucked

still life

still

life

“Head of a Guillotined Man”  by Jean Louis Andre Theodore Gericault

he listens for my heart beat

with his ear pressed into

the ink.

silence like the insides

of seashells.

this is death’s still life.

it stares

from hollow coal sockets

that once swallowed

the world.

his is a presence that

stalks like

clawing fogs

violent wrought iron

and granite too thick

to lift. 

he spills sanguine cabernet

onto white innocent

linens as life

drains his veins.

verdigris skin slinks

against his skull

and his single tooth

makes digestion

difficult

because i too

have death on my breath.

it slips into my skin and

sips at my cells.

behind my eyelids

it is all black

and when we blink

we don’t always

 come back

lovers & fuckers

before there was sex

he loved my
warm silk wrists and
electric pulse

 
he placed his cheek
beneath my clavicles
to whisper to my

skin

and trace my spine

with kisses

before

black plastic sex boxes
colored rubber cocks

before

pizza porn
circumcised sausages
closeups of
slick pink lips

 stitched breasts and

coccyx stamped
suicide chicks

girls had
sexy ankles.

and that soft space
behind my ears
where you
brush secrets and
your thumbs.
 

and now i miss

the innocence

of your porcelain

kiss 

snakes shed skin in casings

he sits inside the ghost

of a cowboy marlboro
and half a stale croissant

atop a stack of hustlers.

 his cold coffee collects smoke and ashes
which float like snow at midnight

and he sips at it anyway.

the chick he caked last night
has a perfect circle birthmark
that dots her spine in the center

the shitshack rorschach stares

and he snakes the last
of his smoke towards the yellowed
stucco ceiling and
thinks about

forbidden knowledge

the garden
garter snake is back
again.
scales like sunflower
seeds
that
sleep inside the
basil leaves.

it stalks slowly
like
crystallized honey
and thaws
the frosty
thursday air
in measured
bifurcated tastes.

i sit beside
the
sliding glass panels
with pink sugared grapefruit
segments
for breakfast
and contemplate
the silent stance between us

it
lisps whispers
and stares 
with glistening obsidians
 that seem to swallow
secrets 

about
the skin
picked from
 palms;
life lines
flaked into
forks
and the palmfull
of blondes
aside the sleepless pillows

the
garden garter
slithers
inside
again
and seeps into
the walls