2.26.2010

doubts forever

what if

I gained fifty pounds?
I say.

he said,
that's ok, too.

and if


I sprout hairs on my chin,
liver spots on my knuckles
and
cankles where there once was
smooth
long
legs?

and what if

I lost my hair,
all of it.
and my now
luscious
tits
flattened like
pancakes
and dangled at my
belly?

would you then?

he says,
yes.
Yes,
even when
your knees crack
and your back aches.
and when you've got no teeth
and your eyes can't see.
even when
you pee when you laugh
and need extra ginko.
when your voice is stiff
and your skin is thin.

even then,
he says,
still.

but what if?